Life is all about versions and updates.
Been a long time I wrote a post, maybe cos the inspiration was not there, or the eagerness for creativity was far away, but I know all these happened because my work, took a greater part of my time. So it’s around 1:30am, then I decided to go through a friends blog… Fountainhead…. A great writer without a pen, so I decided to share this with you, this is what I saw and decided to share, enjoy!!!
This quote is very popular at my workplace & it’s often used when projects are derailed because of opinions and perspectives. However, to me this line means much more than projects in soup or puns at work. This statement resonates with my free-spirited & independent soul which trusts that you cannot be married to assignments & faceless tasks. Life should not be a straight road and you mustn’t drive on it like it is one.
In 2008 I was completing grad school majoring in Psychology & was so sure that I wanted to study my beloved subject further. I was undeniably sure that this very subject allows my ever spinning mind both calmness & consideration. However, standing in 2017, I realize I took a complete U-turn for my instincts although the admiration for the subject never faded away.
In 2011, then in 2013 and then relentlessly from 2015 to now the restlessness kept growing each day. It haunted me so much that I didn’t know where to hide. And that’s when in mid-2016 I took a conscious call to address this demon. I started asking questions, consulting my friends & became more cognizant of what I want to achieve. My journey has thus just started towards an update.
This rant is both catharsis & a confession. This rant is for all those headless chickens, which have passions neatly wrapped & packed in old suitcases buried away from the prying eyes of judgment and cynicism. This rant is to empower & make anyone who has felt directionless better. This is to cushion them from the tsunami of insecurities & judgment errors. This is to let them know that many like us exist in the real world with unreal, utopian dreams of making it big on a road that doesn’t exist & we will have to construct it brick by brick.
Well, if this continuous hammering isn’t loud enough & comes sporadically then I would suggest a vacay to the nearby beach but if it haunts you like it does to me then I am sure sooner or later you will surrender. You will have that day when you will stop caring of the consequences & start thinking of the life you can build with your passion. I am sure; you will start fishing for people, avenues and openings to live your dream.
So, if you are nodding to all of this & the realization has taken years to knock at your door; read on to know how you can welcome it in.
Understand what STOPS you-
As beings we are anchored to the notion of stability. The electric fence of permanence – finances, societal judgment, peer pressure & failure keep us within the known boundaries of exploration. The moment we think beyond the fence the fear of electrocution hits us. Our mind gets clouded with resistance to change & because of the anxiety it brings our mind blows us hard, ‘are you an idiot to leave something you have worked hard for years only for a notion?’
So, it becomes very important to list down your concerns and how it impacts your current living state.
Explain to your family and close friends what it means to be caged. Let them know how you feel unaccomplished in what you do. A word of caution, do not share your deepest with the shallowest. These are entities in your life which are near but not really dear. They will hear but not listen and in sometime will label you as confused and incompetent. This will stunt your growth & make you feel pitiful.
SIT & WRITE it down-
Next step would be to gather your energies & write down what you see yourself doing five years from today. This will clarify and condense arbitrary, unsystematic and muddled webs. You will be able to select necessary trains of thought and merge the rail roads to a station.
MEANS WOULD come –
Once you know the end goal, the means will magically start appearing. The universe will help you meet people & lead to conversations which align with you. Here, it is important to let yourself soak & submerge in the volley of likelihoods. During this the love and support of your faithful one is essential. He/she will help you not only emotionally but also will understand your reservations & give you that essential space and time to think.
Post the road map; comes the daunting challenge of quitting. Quitting is the mother of challenges. As it entails ‘leaving’ it indicates ‘wasting.’ This makes us feel irresponsible. But, the thing to be kept in focus is, ‘you don’t want what you have.’ Once you drill this statement in your head you will not feel bad of losing everything that comes with calling quits. It’s like holding to a dress you will never wear. Just vacant that spot & move!
If you survive this emotional roller coaster, you must applaud yourself. You my friend are an inspiration! Be proud of yourself & your ability to not whine but ACTUALLY act.
Celebrate your journey of being a strong, thinking person who admits to being in a pursuit of happiness.
Like they say, you are not a tree so please move if you don’t like it!
Best of luck!
Faithful C. C👥📚
Courtesy of Fountainhead